Difficult

I have found it difficult to think about writing on here the past few days but have suddenly found myself able to sit down and think of words to put on paper (so to speak of course).

Today we got a call from the funeral home. It is not that I have been in a daze about things to come but I think that this really has made me realize that this is not some bad dream, but all real. Tomorrow we will go to the funeral home and make the final arrangements for our daughter Abby. It is so strange to even think that and of course I am now sobbing at my computer.

Life is so unfair. As much as I had wanted a boy, she was just so perfect. She was our baby. I have so much love for her and she would have been Daddy's little girl, I just know it. Instead, tomorrow I have to go to a funeral home. This is most certainly the most difficult time of my life. I have been through other challenges but the past week has been the most emotionally draining for both of us. Just when I think we are done crying, we cry some more.

We will get through this, I know. We have great family and friends and tons of support from everyone and we appreciate it. I know that it can be hard to find words at this time but know that we are so appreciative of everything that has been done for us.

Keep us in your thoughts tomorrow.