Grief

As most of you already know, Cherie and I have lost our baby. It is a bizarre feeling to become so attached and to feel such love for something that I cannot see or feel, but to now know that it is gone - words can't even begin to explain it. Honestly, I would not wish these feelings on anyone. People do not deserve to go through such agony and pain and I hope that no one reading this will ever have to say goodbye to a child in this agonizing way.

I feel that I am going through the stages of grief. I have moments where I am feeling fine and then it just hits me again and I break down. I am glad at times like this that I have this outlet to let out some of what I am feeling inside.

We are going tomorrow to deliver the baby. I have this looming sense of dread inside of me. I know that this will most likely be the worst day of my life so far but I will be strong for Cherie because I know that she needs that.

Life is going to be tough for a while but thankfully we both have great workplaces that are understanding. We also have great friends who, although they may not know what to say to us, keep us in their thoughts and prayers and have offered time and time again to help us with anything we need.

Let me just say, that Cherie and I are very thankful for everything everyone has said and done for us. Keep thinking about us and praying for us and we move ahead with our lives and move on from this tragic event.

Goodbye little one